why? 我心中的呐喊

Why do i do the same mistakes again and again? have i got no self control at all?

why can't i just tell myself that i will be more confident with myself?

why must i make people's life more miserable?

how???

i am frustrated... i wanna get out of this rut... i dont want to continue to be in this state of self pity... worthlessness... i want to be confident..

i told myself to be positive.... but why do i fall back again to the grey mode, so fast?

i need to do something, its ruining myself, it's ruining my relationship with ppl around me.... i need to do something before it's too late!!!