i suppose sometimes, when i am calmer, i am more aware of the surroundings, when i am neutral, i am spiritual.
there are times, when i am feeling stressed, uneasy, easily irritated, upset for minor reasons... i think about negative things... that is when the spirituality in me is nowhere to be found...
Final med is a tough year... and time and time again i lose my spiritual side... (i think) as a result, the frequency of 'unhappy events' are higher as compared to previous years... today, i met Ben, he is like one of our tutor in the CSI, he was reminding me that its very important for us to keep a strong sense of spirituality deep within us, and also to believe in god in times of hardships...he asked me, "Do you believe in the powerful one up there? He is always beside you to help you..."
I replied, "yes, of course... and i do believe that he takes many forms to remind us/take care of us... as an example, he sends people to help us/ take care of us. That is how he reaches us.. and i believe, within everyone of us, there is a god, to lead us the way in our lives....hmm, perhaps he sent u to me today to remind me, to be strong inside!" :)
Going back to my 'fluctuating spirituality', i believe that is a sign that i have not trained my mind well enough... as a result of lack of 'spiritual exercise', i let myself go astray with negative thoughts many times a day... as a result, i frequently think of giving up when things get tough, i get depressed when things do not turn out as planned, i get mad/angry when i could not get things done in time, i feel lousy, and ugly, sometimes a little stupid... all of these are good indicators, signifying that i need to be more alert n keep more in touch with my spiritual side.
I would like to end this post with a shout out (taken from my friend, Alicia's facebook shoutout...
"No other person can make you feel beautiful. You give all these things to yourself by growing as a person and changing the way to talk to yourself."
Enough said, cili padi, stay strong...you can make things happen! :)
2 comments:
yes, i believe that when you feel stressed, support from the people around you is extremely important. however, you have to know that the suuport is only supplementary, it is you that have to face the problems. therefore, be contented when there is support and be brave when you are alone (not panic about having no support).Be strong!!
thanks dear :)
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